Shelley: Days 8 & 9 - Starving or Fixated

Normally, I would post a photo and give a run down of my day.  Things have been crazy and my husband (who is sometimes like one of my kids, particularly when he's sick) has been really sick.  I had a great workout yesterday but today I kept getting light headed which is totally weird since I've been eating plenty.  I still finished my workout but I had to take it a bit slower in the weight room.  I normally do something between each set (squats, burpies, etc.) to keep my heart rate up but I cut those out today since I'd get all swoony when I did that.

My husband has been computer needy so I wasn't able to blog yesterday (I really don't enjoying doing it from my phone.).  I have been insanely craving chocolate.  I have no idea what the deal is but I'm trying very hard to keep it reasonable.

Here's the breakdowns for the last two days:

Budget 1,428 Food 1,565 Exercise -961 Net 604 Under 824 Breakfast: 170 Oatmeal, Maple & Brown Sugar Steel Cut 1 Serving 170 Lunch: 288 Dressing, Mango Chipotle Yogurt 1 Tablespoon 20 Beechwood Smoked Black Forest Ham 5 Ounces 150 White Bread Farmhouse 1 Serving 110 Lettuce, Romaine, Hearts, Fresh 1 Cup 8 Dinner: 744 Beef, Ribeye Filet, Boneless, Grilled, 0" Trim 4 Ounces 226 Beef, Tenderloin, Filet Mignon, Lean, Broiled, Trim 7 Ounces 458 Tomatoes, Cherry Cherubs 1/2 Cup 38 Veggie Lovers Salad 3 Cups 23 Snacks: 362 Blissful Truffle Candy Bar, Dark Chocolate 1/2 Each 65 Dark Chocolate Caramel Wedges 1 Piece 30 Chocolate, minis, milk chocolate sea salt & almond 3 Pieces 120 Divine filled chocolates Caramel 1/3 Serving 43 Dressing, Yogurt, Salsa Ranch 3 Tablespoons 68 Cucumber, Skinless, Medium 1 1/2 Each 36 Exercise: 961 Elliptical Moderate 55 Min 637 Weight Lifting Vigorous 40 Min 324

Today:

Budget 1,428 Food 1,652 Exercise -802 Net 850 Under 578 Breakfast: 170 Oatmeal, Maple & Brown Sugar Steel Cut 1 Serving 170 Lunch: 360 Wendy's Chicken Nuggests - 4 Piece 4 Pieces 180 Wendy's Small Chili - No Sour Cream 1 Serving 180 Dinner: 364 Chicken, Breast, Grilled 7 Ounces 278 Salad, Field Greens 3 Cups 67 Dressing, Yogurt, Chunky Blue Cheese 1 1/8 Tablespoons 20 Snacks: 756 Dark Chocolate Caramel Wedges 1 Piece 30 Chocolate, minis, milk chocolate sea salt & almond 1 Piece 40 Ham, Black Forest, Shaved 3 Ounces 90 Starbursts 2 Pieces 40 Blissful Truffle Candy Bar, Dark Chocolate 1/4 Serving 33 Random Food 100cals/Serving 2 1/2 Servings 250 Popcorn 3 3/4 Cups 150 Ice Cream Bar, English Toffee Crunch 1 1/8 Each 124 Exercise: 802 Elliptical Moderate 35 Min 397 Weight Lifting Vigorous 50 Min 405

BMR CALC:  (1,760+802)-1,652= 910 Cal Deficit for today.  Hard to believe considering just HOW BAD I WANTED TO EAT EVERY PIECE OF CHOCOLATE IN MY HOUSE!  The good news is, I took my own advice and have made the chocolate super annoying to get to so I have plenty of time to consider just how much I want it.  I suppose I could always put a thinspiration on it so I feel inspired to keep it reasonable. . . :).

TODAY'S TIP:  Starving or Fixated

Today's tip is really more of a musing.  I have OCD, so when I let things creep into my pattern it's really hard to get rid of them.  For example, on the way home from school when I was teaching in Sandy my kids would always say they were starving so I would stop by McDonalds and get them some milk to drink (it's the only healthy thing I could think of).  I would get a diet Dr. Pepper and I was proud of myself for going to MDs without ordering things I like but that are not good for overall health.  

Anyway, fast forward a few weeks and things had crept into my pattern.  I was no longer just ordering a diet drink but a small fry and cheeseburger with MacSause (so stupid, and not even satisfying).  The thing is, I felt a compulsion to stop by even when I didn't really want those things, (thanks OCD).  I've had to come to terms with the fact that sometimes, I'm not hungry, I'm just fixated.  When that happens, to break the pattern, I have to totally change my habits, even if they don't make sense.  I started turning left out of the parking lot instead of the faster way home, turning right.  When I avoided McDonalds, I avoided my fixation.  It's said it takes 3 weeks to make something a habit and I have found this to be completely true.  If I stick to eating healthy for three weeks, all of a sudden it's easier and more natural for me to make good choices.  I know this all sounds crazy but for people like myself who have a fixation on food, sometimes crazy is the answer!

Heidi, if I could make one suggestion it would be swap PB&J for Skinny Pop.  Then eat it as slow as you can.  It will keep you munching and it's salty goodness is a great way to satiate that need to graze.  We all have it!!!

Until tomorrow. . .